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Close to you till the  last beat of my heart. 
I have said things on here I didnt mean and regretted for a long time.Not just now. I had someone in my life who is by far the best person I have ever known. Not in any one way.But in every way. She gave me everything and I destroyed it. Sge patched it up and I tore it down. She desperately tried to save me and save us and I shamwfully spat it in her beautiful face. I have never known love like that and never known a pain like it when I finally broke her too much. A long long long time after she should have. But it ahows how she ia...how she believed. I descended into a hell that has only gotten deeper...just rising to try drag her down. Im ashamed of myself more than anyone can comprehend. I had the world in her. She was everything and would and did give more than evertthing.and i treated her like the enemy because i was too much of a coward to look in the mirror.i made excuses to hurt more...it might be fair to say everything left of me and my heart died last Sunday...but in reality i died a long time ago. Nearly 5 years. And what is left has been lept going with poison that is the cure. I am sorry.More sorry than words. Everything feela broken now and I always was indignant...cries of 'oh ive suffered' I did but i never realiaed how much she did
And she didnt have heroin to numb the pain. I am sorry. I am so so sorry. I hope one day you might just understand...i dont expext you to forgive. You are a beautiful person in every way some one can be.
  • Listening to: Manic Street Preachers, Nitzer Ebb and The Cure
  • Reading: Skagboys- Irvine Welsh, A Season In Hell- Rimbaud
  • Watching: Drive,Rubber,Tokyo Gore Police,Prometheus
  • Playing: Resident Evil 6
  • Eating: Vegetarian food.
  • Drinking: Green Chartreuse and vanilla Chai tea.

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lagwardia
Dr.Greg F. Ward
Ireland
A naked flame on Detonation Boulevard.


Current Residence: Ireland
Print preference: Archivally printed digital, hand printed film.
Favourite genre of music: Them All. Except coutnry & western.
Favourite photographer: Cyril Helnwein & Steve Diet Goedde&Helmut Newton
Favourite style of art: Any photograph that isn't raped of any artistic merit by shooping da woop out of it.
Operating System: Windows 7 & Android. Ive a Mac somewhere too.
MP3 player of choice: Media Player/Sony phone one
Shell of choice: I prefer Texaco....
Wallpaper of choice: A photo of my missus
Skin of choice: a woman's tattooed and pierced skin....on mine...
Favourite cartoon character: Bender (Futurama)
Personal Quote: 'I know I believe in nothing, but it is my nothing''....''Love's written on paper and paper burns.'' ...''The only certain thing, left about me, there's no part of my body, that has not been abused, pity or pain, to show displeasure's shame, and everyone i've loved, or hated, always seems to leave''
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I have said things on here I didnt mean and regretted for a long time.Not just now. I had someone in my life who is by far the best person I have ever known. Not in any one way.But in every way. She gave me everything and I destroyed it. Sge patched it up and I tore it down. She desperately tried to save me and save us and I shamwfully spat it in her beautiful face. I have never known love like that and never known a pain like it when I finally broke her too much. A long long long time after she should have. But it ahows how she ia...how she believed. I descended into a hell that has only gotten deeper...just rising to try drag her down. Im ashamed of myself more than anyone can comprehend. I had the world in her. She was everything and would and did give more than evertthing.and i treated her like the enemy because i was too much of a coward to look in the mirror.i made excuses to hurt more...it might be fair to say everything left of me and my heart died last Sunday...but in reality i died a long time ago. Nearly 5 years. And what is left has been lept going with poison that is the cure. I am sorry.More sorry than words. Everything feela broken now and I always was indignant...cries of 'oh ive suffered' I did but i never realiaed how much she did
And she didnt have heroin to numb the pain. I am sorry. I am so so sorry. I hope one day you might just understand...i dont expext you to forgive. You are a beautiful person in every way some one can be.
  • Listening to: Manic Street Preachers, Nitzer Ebb and The Cure
  • Reading: Skagboys- Irvine Welsh, A Season In Hell- Rimbaud
  • Watching: Drive,Rubber,Tokyo Gore Police,Prometheus
  • Playing: Resident Evil 6
  • Eating: Vegetarian food.
  • Drinking: Green Chartreuse and vanilla Chai tea.

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sleepielion Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2014  Professional Interface Designer
Happy Birthday hope its a good one
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BonzzGX Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2013
Happy Birthday! :party: I wish you plenty of health, good luck & have FUN with all, prosperity & affection. Also many accomplishments & joy around those loved ones :cake: ~take care & rock on :D
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lagwardia Featured By Owner May 24, 2013
thank you sincerely for the lovely birthday wish, sorry for the really late reply!
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BonzzGX Featured By Owner May 24, 2013
np, we're cool:aww:~:hug:
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Ultimate-Psycho Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
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JessiiRitz Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2012
Hey! I just discovered your work and discovered you actually inhabit the same rock in the Atlantic as I do! Awesome! Your work is incredible. I set up my page to be a kind of database for wonderful art and inspiring pieces of art and I have struck gold! :jawdrop:
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lagwardia Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2012
cheers! glad to be so highly thought of! good look with your work.
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scaredylion Featured By Owner Nov 22, 2012  Professional General Artist
Thank you much for the :+fav:S!!! Sorry it's taken me so long to get around to saying it!
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lagwardia Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2012
No problem good sir, and you are more than welcome. You work is magnificent and you have such brilliant vision and talent. I adore the work you done with Mosh and Scar, you light photographs exceptionally well and you capture colour remarkably. Hope to see plenty more images!
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scaredylion Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2012  Professional General Artist
You are far too kind! Thank you for all your wonderful words!!! The show of support is more appreciated than you can know!
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